Lifeline INTERNals

Reflections on the times with families and fellow brothers and sisters in Christ as they fight illness and pain and crisis, through my internship at Lifeline Chaplaincy

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I have learned to live not for myself, but for Him. And in so doing, am able to be the smile of Christ to those I meet.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Late Friday reflection

Last Friday we discussed one of my vertbatims, therefore did not sit down to specifically write out a reflection. The verbatim itself was quite a reflection. But just so theres something scribed to reflect the reflection, here ya go. What did I learn about myself during this verbatim time?

I became easily offended, or guarded when I saw myself in the mirror of words. There was nothing specific, but as we talked about why I wrote certain things, or how they were worded, it was obvious the subconscious was rearing its ugly head to the surface. Lucky for me, I watched a video yesterday titled "Story Listening" by Dr. Savage, where he discusses some of the reasons for our stories, and why it is we continue to tell them. One of the key phrases that stuck out during that video was, "why do you keep telling the same story over and over and over? Have you learned or heard what you are trying to say yet?

So I thought about a story I had continually told over and over and over, the last few years. Why do I keep telling it, and what metaphor is there from the story, to my real life? I had a break through, however, HIPAA regulates what I can share online here about myself. Not really, but the things I've learned were quite eye opening. Dr. Savage explains it like this, in our stories, there is a subconscious trying to get out. What we say, and how we say it, has a meta-story, or a story inside the story. For example, a girl was telling him about a dream she had when she was younger, about driving with her dad up the mountain in their car, and was always so scared that they would get to the top, and get stuck and there would be no way down the other side.
So the metaphor to this story is, "get stuck on the top, and noway down".... what does that mean in your life? Is there something you are fearful of trying or doing, not knowing how it will turn out? Or what will happen once that leap is taken?

A simple example, but very powerful as I learn to listen to people and their stories in the hospital. Ways you can dive into conversation, open up emotions and allow someone the ability to discover for themselves their own story... inside their story.

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after I posted the above, I posted the following on a fellow brothers site. This is a great example of a meta-story.
I don't even want to write this, b/c it will mean I will have to go through with it. But what I struggle to give up is diet coke. The lifeblood of my day. And in return I would drink water. But the implication of this "sacrifice" is that I am flushing my body of impurities and filling it with what I need. Much like my spiritual walk. There is so much "filth, and dark water" taking up the space where the "living water" should dwell". So there you have it, brother. I will give up DietCoke for Lent, and pray over these next few weeks leading up to Easter for that renewal to take place in my heart as well.

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